.Thursday, August 30, 2007 ' 8:05 PM Y
I am JEALOUS!!I only wanted to go online, hoping to look for any other better car deals for xiang ge before we really settle down on one..in the end...
Sometime i think i really take lan lai ka my own bloody head...that is eunice's fav motto, i think...she always scold us that, or perhaps only on me..
My stupid, itchy hand, click here click there and found things i know i never want to read about in my entire life that i am going to spend on this earth..why do people only like to blog about the beautiful things that had happened to them? or perhaps there are ugly ones which i will never get to read..i only see and judge things based on what i read, do you think someone will tell you the truth when you confront them for it? i doubt so, agree?
Should i blame myself for not being able to control my jealously or i am just getting too worked up over small little issue? but is this issue really that small? i cant tell too..
I know my bestie, eunice had this same feeling before too..
she got over it, i guess..but can i?
I know i dun coz this is not the first time i had to control 'this' feeling and tears of mine..
I read this somewhere before..
"Love is not just about accepting your partner's present and future but also his/her everything in the past.."
I just wish for a beautiful moment similar to their wonderful past experiences from his sweet doings he used to give to others..
.Sunday, August 26, 2007 ' 1:59 PM Y
why we are together?oh yeah, i got nothing better to do while uploading and waiting for the pictures from my cruise trip, i went to read xiang ge's testimonials from friendster..
half of them, say that gals out there should go after him before someone else got him..
half of them, claim that he is a love doctor, you got problem getting your dream gal, kindly consult him, ppl called him SHI FU ok?haha...
half of them, get so excited when they know that he is either attached or single..
half of them mentioned that he used to have a nice tanned and body..
half of them, say that he got no temper and is super sweet and caring..
sounded so perfect to have him as a boyfriend right? i always like to ask him whether i will get beat up in public by all the gals who are still waiting for him..
but i believed (bcoz i got no other choices but to believe, opps!) all relationships have a different kind of fate, you can never expect your bf to be his same old self who he used to be..
so i always tell him that i found it kind of amazing that we are actually together now..both from different side of the world actually got a chance to meet and get together..
firstly, he loves the sun which i only used to love it during my secondary school life, i was really tanned like charcoal and i think i looked so dirty!!..when i was in poly, basically, i tried all my best to stay in shade partly bcoz of the influence from the bunch of gals i used to hang out with, yes, i always walked under HDB flats even though is just a 100m walk..i stayed in shade when i go beach but not to the extend of carrying an umbrella and i only apply sun block lotion..and it took me 3 years to become fairer...
but there was once, i applied a sun tan lotion and it only took me 6hrs on the beach with xiang ge and i looked like charcoal again..anyway it was not that bad compared to how i looked last time..
he loves and lives in zouk coz he loves retro so much and i only love rnb..but the funny thing is, we met each other at a wednesday night at dblo..not really retro or rnb either..his first drink in a club would definitely be whiskey dry and that was never in my drink list for the whole clubbing night, i only prefer vodka redbull...
he drinks chivas with ginger ale and i rather prefer martell with a slight of green tea and lots of ice and water when we go drinking at boat quay..
he loves veges and mushrooms and i totally hate them, i dun even know how mushrooms taste like..haha..
and yes, why we ended up still being together despite all the difference?
should a couple be together bcoz they got lots of similarities so they can enjoy their same old stuff together or shld they be together bcoz of their differences so both parties can explore each other's likings and compromise to each other's doings?
i was thinking if i were to write him a testimonial now without any biasness and prestige against him, i would have write one which read so differently from all his frens..bcoz when you are with this person and when you are not, you will get to see a different side of him..tt's why he always like to complain that i dunnoe him well enough even when all his normal frens can do it..for mi, i think that's bcoz he already got the mentality how ppl had judge him so perfectly and i am someone who had saw the other side of my xiang ge..
and to answer to my own question on why we are together?
bcoz i still love him for who he is, from the day i know him though many things had happened and changed throughout our whole journey..
whereas what is his answer to my question, i dunnoe...
.Saturday, August 18, 2007 ' 9:29 AM Y
Some of the things are always better to be left Unknown...Now den i realized what people meant by saying..
"Some of the things are always better to be left Unknown..."
Waking at 9am on a Saturday morning which i cant even do it on a weekday working day plus i only got home like 3hours ago? When my mother ask me why i cant sleep, i got an answer but i just didn tell her..
Do you want the hurting and nasty truth or do you prefer the sweet and perfect lie?
Think about it, whatever you choose, you still end up being hurt..
A lie can never be kept as a secret forever, is just a matter of time you get to know it earlier or even instantly like the truth or in the near future when your brain works faster and smarter to find out the truth yourself...
i choose the hurting and nasty truth, no matter how hard you tried to lock your fav bird pet in the cage, it will also try all means to get itself out of the cage..
i know i used to love the weekends and hated weekdays to the maximum not bcoz i hated my job and is bcoz the people i need to see in office..for those who read my blog will know the office bitc* i used to talk about...from now, i shld stop using that 'b' word on her anymore, haha..in fact i think she was told from someone else about my blog..anyway i managed to clear the hatred and misunderstanding between us and since den, i loved my weekdays too..and now i hated my weekends...
How much sacrificing is worth sacrificing for?
You think this guy is your future husband and you stayed with him faithful and served him like a God for 10 years and by the age of 30, he left with a old bitch and left you with nothing..
Your husband claimed that he loved you and no one else in the whole wide world..you sacrificed your youth and at a age of 26, you already got yourself 2 kids..in the end you turned fat and ugly and of course your beloved husband left you for a pretty lady..
Why cant love has a perfect answer just like 1+2=3?
You never know what you do today is good enough to last you for a life time..
there is more to me than just a smile..
may all couples in the world, last a lifetime just like any other fairy tales..
.Monday, August 06, 2007 ' 1:28 PM Y
I Miss my Babyit has been close to month since i last blog..
yeah, i m really lazy..although i got lots of pictures to upload..
even when i am free and nobody is after the comp, i would still choose to sleep..
working from monday to friday and always awaiting for the weekends to arrive..
slack and sleep through my weekends..
many things has happened, the life i am going through now, really only happens in drama, believe mi..
baby has been busy, we dun really get to meet up too..
i'm just waiting for my short trip away with baby..
it is still two weeks away..
