.Thursday, May 29, 2008 ' 1:23 PM Y
挑一张夜诞卡
写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到他
天有点冷风有点大
城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天
我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜里
回声变得好大
有没有什么好方法
让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得以忘了我
快想快乐出发
有太多的牵挂
都以没有权力表达
旧情人给的问候
比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长
回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪
要怎样不留下
.Monday, May 26, 2008 ' 10:59 PM Y
I went for an appointment at this company called Edgeworth. Actually dun really feel like going down coz i know the guy want to recruit mi into their company rather than listening to what i have to share with him. But my boss just suggest mi to go down to give it a try.
After my appointment at Raffles Place.
On my way to seragoon gardens for dinner.
I had this western food called Aston which is similar to Botak Jones and supposedly this would taste better than Botak Jones. Apparantly i think there was not much different between the two. Hehe..After dinner, I went to try out this ice cream called Haato.Times flies and it has already been two weeks..
.Saturday, May 24, 2008 ' 11:52 AM Y
it was a hectic day, after work at about 4pm, i need to rush to raffles place to do a bit of cold call till 630pm before i can enjoy myself at night. And den i need rush home to change and go for dinner before meeting the gals.
Oh yeah, after my dinner i went to pick the gals at about 845pm to dblo coz we are going early since the invitation is from 8pm to 10pm.
Another shot but dunnoe why my face look the same de, haha.
The gals.
There was a bit of derco at the entrance of dblo since it was their 8th anniversary.
In the toilet, sandra took this picture for me.
Those with the VIP invites are suppose to wear the lanyard for the night.
The ladies!
Sandra and I.
Eunice and I, she trying to act sexy ba but she look kinda cute right?
Another shot of us.
Ailing and I.
A new fren i know yst at dblo, Tiffany. She's the same age as mi but i think she look so much younger and cuter than mi. Too much nightlife is making me aged!!
Megan and us, she's our da jie da too, wahaha!!
Saw magdeline too! dun think i got her name correct, opps!
After dblo, Megan invited us to join her at her fren's pub at selegie.
Some another photos of us in the toilet.
the finger behind was from sandra.
It was such a long day coz we started clubbing at about 9pm all the way to 4am? i dun even know what time we went home..haha. Surprising no one was drunk and i would say not even high despite we actually got quite alot of drinks yst, i think none of us felt like drinking ba.
albert came to pick us up and the first thing he say was: i just came from AMBER!
i was like WTF! why must you mention AMBER in front of mi? of course i know he didn mean it. AMBER was the place where we take vow and swear no matter what happen, we are going to be together forever and get married and start our ideal family we had been planning for. He wanted to mark his own words to prove to mi he really mean it and that's why he pen down those words right at the highest point of the wall where no one can erase it away.
For the whole night, i was trying to put everything and just be myself. Oh well, that word really stir up my sad memories again. During the journey back, i couldnt help it but to text him a msg and tears roll down again but i swear it was only a drop of it. I'm really useless, i guess.
Someone told mi when a break happens, there's a total of 5 stages everyone has to goes through.
1. Super sad and depressed
2. Start deceiving yourself and lying to yourself that the person still love you or even things like still can stay as frens and i'll be contented
3. Blame on yourself that actually you are the one who caused the break up
4. You'll start to hate him so much and that you know actually he's just a jerk and why shed your tears for him
5. When the hatred stage is over, one shld be able to take her mind off him
Which stage am i in right now?
i wished i was stronger..
.Friday, May 23, 2008 ' 12:03 AM Y
Tml is DblO 8th Anniversary!!
We are invited!!
Actually is not a big deal to receive the invitation card since everyone else still get to go in as long you pay for the entrance fee. The only different is that you can go in for free and a complimentary drink if you have the invite.
But i'm just so excited to receive the invite coz the theme of the card is black and purple, my favorite color combination. DblO got good taste like me!! wahaha..
. ' 1:41 AM Y
oh yeah, just went to bought my new phone on monday..
so nice singtel was having a $30 rebate on that day bcoz it was a vesak day special..
i took pictures of eunice's phone instead, i mean obviously i cant take pictures of my own phone..
i know it suppose to be a 5 MP phone and the quality of the pictures i posted sux..
i mean it will look like a 5 MP camera phone if you got the skills to take it ba..
certain pictures i took it look ok but some really a bit disappointing ba..
nevertheless, i still love my LG Viewty!!~
.Wednesday, May 21, 2008 ' 10:35 PM Y
i believe that not everyone will believe wat you guys have to say on my or her tag or even wat i had blogged...
personally last time, when you guys keep taggin mi those hate tags, i told myself you guys are just being so jealous of mi (pardon mi for saying that coz i really used to love him so much)..you guys cant have what you want so are trying all means to break us up..so i keep tellin him and myself, no matter what names you guys gave mi, i'll just ignore and i die die also dun want to delete or block my blog..i want to be in the battle and see who wins..i tell myself we are going to last to prove your guys wrong..
slowly the hate tags die off and suddenly back and in the end no more again..and now den i realised why last time no matter how hard i made him to stand up for mi in my blog, he didn do it willingly..i guess it's not the first time bcoz of him, his current gf will receive this kind of shit..i think he knew it but just didn want to let mi know..
so like wat disappointed had tagged in his blog that she will want to find evidence to show to the new gal he's wooing that he's just a jerk and will make sure they wont get together..i just felt that the gal may want to think like how i used to think and would purposely be together with him to prove you guys wrong? we never know and in the end wont you be more angry at him?..i guessed many of you still dunnoe who she is but from how i feel, she still have strong believe in him and she just find all of us are just trying to malign him..
those who are his ex gfs, should know how attractive he can be..
for this, i can never deny he is not..
so i strongly agree he got the power to make her fall in love with him no matter what we say..
you need evidence to go against him? i got plenty..if not i wouldnt have find out myself without a single person's help to know how they know each other and where they go and what they did and what they talked about..even till the last moment he didn speak the truth..
he didn even dare to apologize right into my eyes, all he can tell mi is how worried he is if he cant woo her and yet he can tell mi our break up is bcoz we got no trust in the rs and not her..you start wooing her even before we broke up, no trust bcoz of mi? it totally dun make sense..i suppress my feelings to encourage that he can do it..do you know how cruel he is? till den my tears had all already dried up, i was so hurt but yet i didn cry..
just yst you still want to stop mi from blogging! if you think she's reading my blog den you try stopping her not to read it and not calling mi to ask mi stop blogging..stop scoldin mi and saying i'm gathering people to stop her from being with you, i nv..did i like tell the whole world who she is so that people can do things to hurt her like how people used to hurt mi? i can swallow all the pain myself and nv choose to hurt you..
you know mi for a year plus, you think i'm this knid of person..pls touch your heart and ask yourself, i love you but that doesnt mi i will do this kind of selfish act..looking at her make mi relate to myself when the time i just got together with you..i know the kind of feeling is really not good when people start pointing fingers at mi..i'm already trying to protect her for you yet you keep saying i'm finding trouble for you..you know mi well enough, if i really want the person suffer, no matter wat i do, i will really make sure both of you suffer like how i suffer..but did i? i love you and i wont do things to hurt you like separating you from the person you like..i'm not a person who claim how much you love her and yet hurt her as much too..
. ' 10:19 PM Y
you mentioned that the whole world think that you are the bad guy i'm the angel since i nv blogged about the stuff which i had lied to you..
now i'll blog those stuff which i had lied to you..
you caught mi smoking TWICE when i promised i will give up smoking for you..
i went for my work related appointment with a guy who tried to woo mi last time but we didn even get together at all..
am i being fairer to you now?
i just want you to know i didn want to get everyone to be at my side at all and i believe some of these people who have been tagging at my blog are those who used to tag mi those hate tags too..
i really didn do a single thing to make people hate you...
.Tuesday, May 20, 2008 ' 8:43 PM Y
i dun think the things i blogged will make let her be mistaken that he still got feelings for mi and that in case it will caused them not be together which is his mega main concern now..WTF!!
i dun think my simple english is that difficult to understand ba..
MR TAN, you cant understand that doesnt mean others dun!!
.Monday, May 19, 2008 ' 7:09 PM Y
the world is so small that i can actually see you on fri night at Broiler when it was so not you and not mi to be at Brolier...we didn even exchange eye contact...my tears just start flowing down..bcoz i really miss you so much and even when we saw each other, you didn even want to take just a look at mi...i wanted to leave the place so much...just went i was outside deciding where to go you msged mi and asked mi go in to help you drink coz you were already damn drunk..too bad when i stepped into Brolier, it was closing and you told mi you'll be going home soon..so i went back home too..at about 5am plus, you called mi again and ask where am i and whether i had reach home safely..my heart melted..maybe you showed concern only bcoz you were drunk and nothing else, i shouldnt have think so much...
wanted to meet up with you on sat night, i told you i can even wait for you to finish your drinking session with whoever it was..you rejected mi and say maybe do it on sunday night..
i reminder you that sunday night was a public holiday eve and i guess more or less she will be back and i know you would rather meet her than mi..and i was right, you rejected mi again and tell mi maybe we shld meet up on monday night instead...you called mi on sunday afternoon to tell mi how jammed it was at the customs towards JB..oh well, once again my heart melted..den you keep telling mi you will be going ktv with your guy frens later but too bad i was really correct..you didn but instead, you went out with her..you were at PS and i was at the Cathy..so near yet so far..since den you didn reply my msgs and didn return my phone calls anymore..
i couldnt take it anymore so i looked you up on monday morning..and you told mi things which i think nobody will ever know unless you are one of the victims like mi ba..or maybe is just another lie from you so that you can make mi give up on this relationship..i really dunnoe..
you offered to send mi home after our talk..during our journey back..i dunnoe what had gotten into mi but the fact i was talking to you so nicely even when you ask mi stuff like how would i feel if i know you will to get together with that gal..you continued to ask mi whether i think she is suitable for you and whether you stand a chance since there are still many other guys going after her..in fact, i still advise you in how you might be able to win her heart over despite there are other guys..i asked you: i thot you told mi you are not going after her and our break up is not bcoz of her? but why are you telling mi how upset you are right now when she might be accepting others and not you..so which is which?you cant answer mi..
you gave mi a hug just before we parted with each other..you sent mi a sms saying you are sorry..
i really dun need a sorry sms from you..once you say you feel sorry and bad about how you had treated mi means you know you are going to hurt mi or you actually did it on purpose...
nobody knows how you think, what you want to do..and nobody will know what you say is the truth..
.Sunday, May 18, 2008 ' 3:39 PM Y
Our very first photo together..
i was changing my blogskin where i decide to start reading my past entries and his past entries...
there were bad times and there were really sweet times we had together...
and i realised, when people change, they really do change..
just one day, he was completely like a different person..
he used to love you so much and suddenly he hates you so much or perhaps he's already loving someone so much...
went for dinner with all my family and relatives last night...
that's the most torturing event i had to went through...
everyone knows he will be there, everyone thought we are getting married soon...
everyone tells mi he's a nice person.. nv did i had a bf who receive so much good comments and impression from them...
but the fact was, he was not there...
i know i couldnt except any of these cold blooded attitude from him..
i really dun believe he wanted a break up...
he told mi to look at his friendster consistently and when one day if i see a photo of him with another gal, means i can F*** off liao..do you realise how painful it was to hear that?
he's enjoying himself everyday yet he can tell mi he feel the pain too?
how i wished, it's all just a dream...
how i wished i can rewind back our time..
I really dunnoe what the motivating factors to push myself to live on my life..
.Saturday, May 17, 2008 ' 5:37 AM Y
Never in my life did i feel so shit in my life..
For a moment, you gave mi hope..
For a moment, you ask mi back off..
.Thursday, May 15, 2008 ' 7:35 PM Y
oh well, life is really so ironic..
i have been trying so hard to blog the entry where i brought wx for formula drift..
but i just cant upload our photos..
till today there is no point blogging about it anymore..
